Wednesday, September 26, 2007

The 26th

Just finished watching the SSPE episode of 'The Correspondents' and it touched my heart and made me cried. The documentary was about the people who were diagnosed with SSPE, in short, yung sakit na parang lumiliit ang utak and nagiging abnormal na and can't even talk and move his own body. The sacrifices and the hardships of the relatives that were taking care of them were superb and sobrang nakakabilib sila. A part of the episode was a mother saying that she was praying that if his son can't make it, she just wanted God to finish all the hardships of his son, to finish his life... and I know kung gano kahirap sabihin ang mga dasal na yon...

Then I remembered my sister who passed away almost five years now. She was in the hospital for thirteen days and the few remaining days of her life, she was lying on the bed on continuous sleep. Can't even talk, can't even hear us, can't even move her own hands and legs. Lagi naming pinupunasan yung katawan nya kasi sobrang init. We were talking to her and we were wishing that time that she can hear us, that she can hear the words 'I Love You'. She was on the coma stage and all that we can do was to pray. My birthday came, it was 26th of January when I went to the church and prayed. I said... it was my birthday naman, the best birthday gift that I can have... sana di na mahirapan kapatid ko... kung kukunin Mo sya sa amin, kunin mo na, sobrang naaawa na ako sa kanya... parang di ko na kayang makita na nakaratay lang sya ng parang walang buhay... Then I went back to the hospital... then I heard my other sister shouting and crying... I entered the room, my mother was also crying and I said to myself... ito na ba yun?! My birthday wish was granted... I don't know kung magiging masaya ako or malungkot... what a stupid question... But I have to be strong, ako lang lalake sa bahay that time... my father was in abroad... Di ko na napigilan then napaiyak na rin ako... and that was the last that I cried in front of my family... Hanggang libing di na ako umiyak... wala si Papa... ako lang lalake... dapat makaya ko... walang sasandalan si Mama at mga kapatid ko.

Earlier on my way home, kasabay ko yung isang close friend ko. Then I saw on his cellphone, pictures ng mga kapatid nya as wallpaper. Such a touching scene, kumpleto pa sila... kami hindi na... But life must go on... This is the reason why I don't normally celebrate my birthday on the 26th, sometimes 25th or basta lagpas ng 26. Because that date is only for my sister...

1 comments:

Forever Yang said...

psst bawal magpaiyak dito. *sniff* angels go to heaven remember...

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